What runs through my mind on a daily basis?

When I first became a Christian, I mean a real Christian, one that really tries to love God with everything that I am. I used to wonder to myself, "why is it that most people who say that they love Jesus and have been walking with Jesus for a long time, act like they are tired of walking with him? It's as if they ran out of the joy that they 1st had when they 1st came into a relationship with Him. So now, here I was living with that fear in the back of my mind. God, what if I run out of the love and devotion that I had when I 1st came into contact with you? But as I look back, it has been 12 years since I asked Christ to come into my life and I am realizing the longer i follow Christ the more I desire Him. I can truly understand that the depths of His love can not be measured. What runs through my mind on a constant basis is figuring out how can I get even closer to Jesus. I want to know Him so intimately. I desire to walk with Him on a regular basis. Jesus is always telling me to come closer and closer and closer. I just need to keep trusting Him. Sometimes it's not easy because my flesh gets in the way. But the more I die to self I see Christ even more. Lord, in these last days, I do not want to run out of my joy in Christ. Keep me as the apple of your eye.

Your servant,

Jermel